Tonight I had some time so I thought after the regular void meditation I’d do a trance. So after I had quiet my mind and sat a while like that, I looked in the crown chakra (turning my closed physical eyes to the forehead), then focused in the third eye while remained centered in my Solar Plexus. I kept breathing and started to descend. I called for Hecate and she appeared. I said nothing and ask nothing because it wasn’t really anything to be asked or said. I sit a while in the presence of the Goddess. Then I felt Belial behind me. He was, as he appeared to me – huge and with beardy human face (sometimes he appears to me also huge but hooded and with face of void). I could see him with my rear vision. I sit again a while in the presence of Gods. It was dark. I kept breathing and stayed centered in my Solar Plexus while focused on the bow. Could not see anything.
Then suddenly appeared IT, the creepy clown. It was also huge and very frightening. He would open wide his mouth with yellow teeth, like he was trying to swallow me. It was like a muffled roar. I felt Belial behind me and did not scare. Almost at all. I kept breathing, not to loose my focus. The clown come closer, so close so I could see only his enormous face. Then roared again to me. He was surrounded by clouds of smoke I felt Belial behind and Hecate on my left side and did not fear. Then I started to fall. Gods weren’t with me anymore. Instead, I was falling through a smoke that was more and more thick. When the fall stopped I was really in the Underworld. It was dark, warm (but not hot) and very much smoke. I had a sense of familiarity, like I was there before. I felt comforted and safe. The place smelled like burned sage. The smoke dispelled slowly and I have seen Baphomet on a big chair. There were also torces on side. I have seen Him before and I wasn’t afraid of Him – He was always friendly with me, despite His frightening guise. Baphomet is also very wise. I felt again Belial was somewhere, but I couldn’t see Him. There were a gathering. Except Baphomet, everyone else was standing. A sense of respect and wisdom was somehow over there. Then Baphomet spoke to me:
‘You have to know this: behind every experience you call ‘bad’ – every fear, every pain, you’ll find me. That’s why thou shouldt never be afraid. but learn to fight and stay whole. I am your root chakra and I give you power to keep going. You’ll find me beyond every hardship no matter you can or cannot get through it, so know you’re actually safe’. After that I was spitted back into my world and had to deal with my numbed limbs. I am so grateful for this experience.