I just closed my eyes and… I was on a craggy peak. Thin, cold air was burning my lungs. There were a slight mist and the sky was cludy.
– Lirach Tasa Vefa Velich Belial…
– It was about time…
– What for now??
– A change. Life changes, It’s their nature. The very nature of the Universe – that is set in motion by the Spirit. Spirit is never still, for it is what drives everything forth.
– I am concerned about myself…
– Very selfless
– Will it be a hard one?
– If you’d know before hand what is to come, where’d be the fun then?
– So, is going to be a fun part, yet? Until now – not so much…
– You are complaining.
– Do I?
His brown cloack was fluttering in the almost fallen wind.
– Tell me something yet untold – a hidden truth about Universe, to take it with me down there. So I have You with me for all the rest of the time.
– I am always with you and will be for ever. And there are no hidden truths of the Universe. Literaly no secrets As part of the Universe, you already know everything.
– Are you part of the Universe, too?
– Yes and no.
– How that?
– While you call me forth with words that can be uttered by a being of this Universe, then I am.
– And there is… more?
– For sure.
– Can I stay in your presence for a while?
– As long as you can focus.
– Thank you.
Once again I closed eyes, trying to dam thoughts` waves. Scintilating lights were dancing behind my lids. Soon, too soon, air become more breathable and temperature warmer. I was in my gloomy room and Luna was barking outside. A slender rain began, quenching the Earth’s thirst.
Here you can find a very interesting writing about hindu Goddess Kali, associated or even conflated with Lilith by many Left Hand Path practitioners.
Lord Amon: There are two kinds of darkness – a healthy darkness, which usually is void and absolute black and a darkness that needs to heal. It doesn’t feel quite right, it might be scary or burdening and it sometimes may appear like being wet or swampy. When you’ll encounter this, you’ll just know. At such time you may fly to me and take some yellow dust of my pure light and sprinkle it over what needs to be healed. The light will fade, but it will also dry and close the wounds, transmuting everything into ripe ground with fresh smell and purified energy. You already know to fly, so there shouldn’t be a problem at all to come and take some of my light, Night Wings.
Enn: Avage Secore Amon Ninan
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Tonight I had some time so I thought after the regular void meditation I’d do a trance. So after I had quiet my mind and sat a while like that, I looked in the crown chakra (turning my closed physical eyes to the forehead), then focused in the third eye while remained centered in my Solar Plexus. I kept breathing and started to descend. I called for Hecate and she appeared. I said nothing and ask nothing because it wasn’t really anything to be asked or said. I sit a while in the presence of the Goddess. Then I felt Belial behind me. He was, as he appeared to me – huge and with beardy human face (sometimes he appears to me also huge but hooded and with face of void). I could see him with my rear vision. I sit again a while in the presence of Gods. It was dark. I kept breathing and stayed centered in my Solar Plexus while focused on the bow. Could not see anything.
Then suddenly appeared IT, the creepy clown. It was also huge and very frightening. He would open wide his mouth with yellow teeth, like he was trying to swallow me. It was like a muffled roar. I felt Belial behind me and did not scare. Almost at all. I kept breathing, not to loose my focus. The clown come closer, so close so I could see only his enormous face. Then roared again to me. He was surrounded by clouds of smoke I felt Belial behind and Hecate on my left side and did not fear. Then I started to fall. Gods weren’t with me anymore. Instead, I was falling through a smoke that was more and more thick. When the fall stopped I was really in the Underworld. It was dark, warm (but not hot) and very much smoke. I had a sense of familiarity, like I was there before. I felt comforted and safe. The place smelled like burned sage. The smoke dispelled slowly and I have seen Baphomet on a big chair. There were also torces on side. I have seen Him before and I wasn’t afraid of Him – He was always friendly with me, despite His frightening guise. Baphomet is also very wise. I felt again Belial was somewhere, but I couldn’t see Him. There were a gathering. Except Baphomet, everyone else was standing. A sense of respect and wisdom was somehow over there. Then Baphomet spoke to me:
‘You have to know this: behind every experience you call ‘bad’ – every fear, every pain, you’ll find me. That’s why thou shouldt never be afraid. but learn to fight and stay whole. I am your root chakra and I give you power to keep going. You’ll find me beyond every hardship no matter you can or cannot get through it, so know you’re actually safe’. After that I was spitted back into my world and had to deal with my numbed limbs. I am so grateful for this experience.