Sometimes the demons are the only meant to take away one’s grief and sorrow. Sometimes you become whole only when you totally loose yourself. Being on a Left Hand Path doesn’t mean you got to become a jerk unless you want to comply to the Right Hand Path depiction about it. This Beltane I probably was one of the few practitioners who put fruits on the Gods’ table, as I am vegan. And yes, crushed strawberries were to mimic a blood sacrifice for the blood is the most powerful symbol of life and passion and desire. Fruits can offer this energy to a spell because they are alive, thus they got pranic energy. Also they come right from the bosom of our Mother Gaia. Also blood means lost, destruction, deep despair, fear and death for when the blood is lost, the life itself is lost. And I want all these be taken away from me, which was granted right after I completed the offering. It was both an offering AND a sacrifice of pranic energy.